Eff my actual personality.

right time to vent,
being as shy as i am really doesn't get you far in life,
being as quiet as i am really doesn't gain you many friends that would notice your absence,
being as miserable as i am right now really makes you look boring,
being as determined as i am really makes people think I'm a nerd,
now don't have that close friends in this class and its starting to hurt,
being as unconfident as i am really shows, within my body and my mind, being unconfident to speak up and be myself, but i cant because I'm so uncomfortable, and so unconfident, it sucks, and i don't know what to do about it, be smart like my friend and never shut up, do something i don't like to gain friends, I'm screwed, not gunner lie, i need a personality transplant. dont particularly care about my spelling mistakes

Ill.

I dont want there to be anything wrong with me, i dont want to have to take pills for the rest of my life, i dont want to be the college freak, always passing out, i hope its just a virus, and that it will go, i dont want anything seriously wrong with me, i love living.