Loosing.

Sooner or later we all loose something close to us,
I've lost two people, to Cancer, as I'm sure many people have.
But that's not the point, the point is that i lost two of the most important people in my life.
I'm sure I've missed plenty of times with both of them.
I miss them, I miss walking to the car holding his hand,
i miss the sound of his voice,
giving me advise,
There going to miss my 16th birthday this year,
going to miss his great grand-children, and great great grandchildren...
I know what loosing feels like.
I DONT WANT TO LOOSE YOU
I don't want to loose you to anything, weather that be moving away from me,
Or loosing you to any other girl,
that almost happened once and i don't want it to happen again.
This was going through my mind when i was doing something, which is highly wrong for me to be doing.
The smell disgusted me.
Just the thought of me filling my body with them chemicals almost kills me.
However taking this one chance of doing something wrong for once helped me think and clear my mind.
The Fact Is.
I Want To Be With You.
And Never Loose You.
TO Anything.