Wednesday, 26 May 2010

un-fair?

Wow long time since i've written one of these...
Every time your lips touch mine, i still get the butterfly affect, still get the urge to smile, hold you tighter. tip-toe. bent knees. perfect. Candle light is what i need, need the romace of a perfect night, perfect everything, not what it almost was, a rush, a hurry, quietly. not that. i dont want to rush. take the time. just so i know you'll still be there. not that you just want me for certain aspects. recently thats all i feel like. need to know i can still talk to you for hours, and can just hold you. iloveyou.
Times change people change, things which you could do a long time ago you cant really do anymore. Sometimes i wonder weather you actually know how stupid you truely are. Nobody actually cares. the times when people will listen to issues and respond in a certain manner shows how much they need you, want you. He Was being himself, dont take everything he did to heart its him being him, get over it, to him your nothing special, your just his friend. Now i cant have my own dream because its your dream is it? well sweetie it was my dream for a very long time, i knew i wanted this from the second i knew i was good at it. do you honestly see your friends with your art-work everywhere? let her get on with it. stop worrying.
Science lessons arnt the same since i sat there and heard the lyrics which made me almost cry. i want to look at a picture and know that you know me now, who i am now, i want to know you as you were, but as you know me now, i want you to see me on my prom night, i want you to look at me and say i love you my beautiful granddaughter. but that cant happen can it, im sure you died when i was too young to understand, to loose someone at such an age, its not fair, im finding it hard to remember your voice, thats surely not a good thing. i wish you could see me now. because i miss you. i love you.

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