Wrong!

Sometimes you get it so wrong.
You say something before you think about how i would take it.
"oh your ditching me!" you said this to luke...
Made me feel like i wasnt good enough and that you didnt really want me there at all .
Everyone is allowed to have days where they feel like crap beause they feel ill.
Which i know ive been feeling ill for over a week now.
Its made me seem like i cant be botherd with anything.
And to be honest i cant.
I really cant be botherd to aruge with you.
Because your not going to see my point.
You cant understand why im thinking like this.
You promice me you wont be going anywhere.
Thats what the last guy said and the boy before him.
All guys say that to girls, to try and make them feel special,
I know its been ages but, i feel like im having trust issues.
I've put all my trust into the previous ones and they both left me shatterd.
You say your worried about me being swept off my feet by someone else...
To be honest the only way your not going to feel like that is if we go out.
And what is the difference of us going out, is the garentee that im yours.
Because ive told you i am.
And that still isnt good enough.
I dont see the difference between us going out and what we are now.
We are pratically going out anyway.
But still,
Ive told you so many times that im not going anywhere.
And you still dont believe me.
Im starting to wonder.
Is it me with the issues or you?!
Im not like "her" you've seen how she treats your family
Im not like her, im not going to treat you like utter crap.
But you need to understand that i need time alone.
As everyone does.

"With raindrops on roses and girls in white dresses,
And sleeping with roaches,
And taking best guesses,
Shake off the sheets, and before all the stains,
Add a Few more of your favorite things"
Only thing thats making sence is the music which drowns my thoughts